Speechless

This time God, I have no words to say.

This time I am speechless.

Searching for you.

Feeling distant again.

Wanting to hear from you.

Doing my best.

Not to harden my heart.

But not sure how many blows…

I. can. keep. taking.

I know I must bare my cross.

I know I must suffer because your son did.

But this time. I am speechless.

I know I need to humble myself

I know I need to make things right

But this time. I am speechless.

I’m trying hard not to harden my heart.

But not sure how many blows…

I.can.keep.taking.

I can’t write

I can’t sing

I can’t dance

I can’t talk to you

I am numb

But I must write

I must praise you

I must dance

I need to talk to you

I need to open up.

But I need just a little more time.

To do what my pride doesn’t want me to do.

Because this time.

I am speechless.

But I know what I need to do.

 

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